Thursday, September 3, 2009

First Day of School!!!!!



So today was a very big day for us. My little babies started school!! I cannot believe that they are old enough. They were so excited. Samantha woke up this morning at 6:27am and stood at the top of the stairs and yelled to me "Mommy, it's the first day of school....time to get dressed". It was so cute! They all got ready in record time and off we went. I tried to slow it all down, I took a bunch of pictures. Then I had to argue about why they couldn't take the bus. I finally told them it was my right as the mommy to drive them to school on their first day. Then I reminded them that they were going to ride the bus home, and all was good. I drove really slow, crying the entire way. We took a picture of them in front of the sign at school, then walked them in. I felt like I was going to just break down at any moment, and was concentrating on being excited for them. A few tears leaked out when we got to Paige and Christian's class. Jeremy and Samantha started taking off their backpacks and were ready to stay. Paige and Christian entered their classroom and just took off. Chatting with the teacher, chatting with the other kids, completely ready to go. I was crushed! While I was happy that they were okay with me not being there, I secretly wished that they would cling just a little. There was no clinging at all!!!! Then we went to Samantha and Jeremy's class and it was more of the same. They just took off. Ready to be "in school". I was very grateful that they all remembered to kiss me and say good-bye, but I felt like I was an after thought. Again, I was really glad that they were going to be okay without me, but all of a sudden I was not sure I was going to be okay without them.



So we said our good-byes and about half way down the hall I started to lose it. I wanted to run back and grab them. The tears started and I made it out to the car and sat there for about 5 minutes just crying. Dan was looking at me like I was crazy. Guys just don't understand!!!!! The entire day was weird for me. I went to the store, alone, and it was just strange. At home it was creepy quiet. I watched the clock all day long. I couldn't wait for them to get home. The bus arrived just after 4 and the kids were so excited to be home, and I cried when I got to hold them in my arms again and I knew that all of us had survived the first day. They are in bed now and they cannot wait to go back to school. Tomorrow cannot come fast enough for them, but for me, I wish it would never come!!!

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Tooth Fairy and Dr visit

So first, the exciting thing that happened today. Samantha has been wiggling a tooth for about 2 weeks wondering when it will come out. Well, today at lunch time she had success!!! It came out and she is so excited. Mommy and Daddy are too, this is the first baby tooth to fall out.

She is so proud. Right now her tooth is under her pillow and she is waiting for the Tooth Fairy to come and give her "either candy or money". It is so much fun to see her so excited and talk to her about these big girl things. I really thought that this was going to start something with the other kids about why their teeth aren't falling out, but so far they are just excited to see what she is going to get. I can't wait to see her face in the morning when she finds out what the Tooth Fairy brought her.

The other not so exciting thing is that I am sick. For the first time since they were born, I have actually been too sick to care for them. And the kicker is I don't have a clue what is wrong with me. I woke up on Thursday morning with pains in my stomach (actually above my stomach) and other gross stuff that I won't go into. I decided to just deal with it and hoped I would be fine by Friday. My mother was here for part of the day on Thursday, so I was able to be in bed, or just sit in the chair quietly until after she left, but there really wasn't much they needed after that except dinner, and Dan helped me with that. On Friday morning I woke up even worse that I was the day before. So I called the Dr. and went in to see her. I FULLY expected her to say I had a "tummy ache" and to go home. Instead I was told to go to the hospital and get blood work and a CAT Scan. Yippie!!!! Oh and by the way, the stuff that you have to drink before you have a CAT Scan, GROSS!!!! It's like drinking Tang flavored glue! OMG... when you are not feeling well, to ask some one to drink that stuff is just downright cruel! Anyway, I sat in the Radiology Dept. waiting room, in more pain than I can remember ever being in, and then finally went in. They did the scan and then told me to wait. After about 20 minutes, I was told to go back to the Dr office. So off I went and she told me that they don't have a clue what is wrong with me, and sent me home with pain meds, and 2 different kinds of antibiotics (after they gave me a 3rd in shot form in my butt). So I went home, scared the shit out of Dan because I was in so much pain I think he was sure I was going to explode all over the bedroom! So today, the pain is not as bad, but Dan is freaking out every time I get out of bed. I am convinced I have the best husband in the world. He has been completely wonderful! So that is all I have to say tonight.

School starts on Wednesday, and I am finally coming to terms with that....we will see how I am on Wednesday after I drop them off though.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Summer is coming to an end

So we have moved home from the summer camp, and I am trying to get everything put away and organized. I am exhausted LOL!!! The kids are so excited to be home and have all of their favorite toys to play with again. They also know this is the countdown to their first day of school! Every time I mention it to them, they start jumping up and down and yelling. I am really glad that they are looking forward to school. There is something that each of them is excited for. Samantha can't wait for all of it. When I ask her which thing she is most excited about, she tells me she just can't pick! lol Jeremy can't wait for music class! He wants to play a trumpet, and for some reason he thinks he is going to be doing that on the first day of school. Paige is looking forward to art class. She loves to color and draw, so I think that will turn out to be her favorite class. Christian is looking forward to having recess everyday. LOL It's funny, I think he gets more and more like my brother every day.

I am trying to look forward to it as well. I took the kids to the grocery store today, and they were very good! In fact we had fun. We were singing songs and they were helping me. It took and hour and a half to do all the shopping, and by the time we were done, I was exhausted and just wanted to go to sleep. So, I am looking forward to shopping alone! I think that will be so much fun. Not having to hear..."mommy, can I have" or "mommy please buy me..." and all the other things they beg for. I am also looking forward to meeting them at the bus in the afternoon and hear all about their day, and snuggle with them after being away from them all day. They are growing up and I am really starting to see them as little people, not babies! Wow, scary!

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Summer Days

To day I was able to enjoy watching the kids play in the water all day. They were swimming and playing ball in the water. I just love watching them play and get along. Dan got to throw them all off the dock today, and even tought they were freaking out before he did it, they al loved it after they dried off their faces. Okay, well everyone but Paige (who has not figured out that she can't breathe underwater, not even if she REALLY wants to).

They all got boxes from Grammie and Grampie today, and opened them after dinner. It was a lunch box for each of them and they were so excited. We talked about school, and they just can't wait. Everytime you mention it, they get ants in their pants and just start jumping up and down. I wish I could be that excited. Its good for them.

Okay, so I don't really have much to say. I could babble on, but I am not going to,. Have a good night!!!

School

WHY WHY WHY WHY do they need to go to school? I have been dreading this time since they were born. I love my babies, I actually like having them around (shocking I know). I am so completely freaked out about them going to school. Outside influence, strangers, time away from mommy...all these things are bad!

I have 18 days to get myself ready for them to go to school. The kids, they are so ready, me... not so much! My big decision right now is whether to put them on the bus the first day of school. I want to drive them to school. I want to hold their hands, and walk them to their class rooms (and yes, there are 2 class rooms, and I am still not very happy about that!!!) make sure that they remember their teachers, (more importantly, make sure the teacher remembers me) hug them good bye and then stand outside the class room secretly watching then and make sure they are okay. What if they need me? What if they are sad, and need a "mommy snuggle"? I really can't imagine putting them in the hands of someone who doesn't know them at all, someone who doesn't love them. If they fall and get hurt, with the teacher hug them until they stop crying? Will they blow on the medicine they put on the boo boo so it doesn't sting?

Then I think about things like, are they ready? Did I teach them enough? Will they fall behind? Will the teachers think they are stupid?

Will anyone pick on them because they are quads? Will anyone pick on them because they are fertility babies? I never really thought about having "fertility babies" and sending them to school. So many people are uneducated about fertility, and they can say some nasty things. And then the Octomom thing happened, and people got even worse about it. I never worried about before, but now I worry about parents who have a problem with fertility. You would be amazed at how many people have an opinion about something they know NOTHING about!!!

Okay, I guess I have rambled enough. I am sure I will get through this, I am sure I ill grow up enough to send my babies to school, I just wish I could have another year!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Are they really this old???

So today is only 3 weeks until my babies start kindergarten. I am so sad, yet so excited. Trying to understand how I just gave birth to them a week ago and they are now 5 (almost 6) and entering kindergarten. We have everything ready for the first day of school. Backpacks, lunch boxes, new clothes, new shoes... everything. They are excited, but I AM NOT!!!

Every time I think of them getting on a school bus, or being away from me for a whole day, I just want to cry. I guess I will get over it eventually. I have decided to give them a ride to school on the first day, and let them ride the bus home. Everyone is making fun of me, but I just don't think I can put them on a bus and watch them drive away.

Another milestone I have to deal with. I am happy for them because I know that they are going to have so much fun! They are so excited to take music class and art class. They are excited to learn how to read and do math and all that. I can't wait to hear about their day and see their faces when they are talking about what happened at school!