First Day of School!!!!!

So today was a very big day for us. My little babies started school!! I cannot believe that they are old enough. They were so excited. Samantha woke up this morning at 6:27am and stood at the top of the stairs and yelled to me "Mommy, it's the first day of school....time to get dressed". It was so cute! They all got ready in record time and off we went. I tried to slow it all down, I took a bunch of pictures. Then I had to argue about why they couldn't take the bus. I finally told them it was my right as the mommy to drive them to school on their first day. Then I reminded them that they were going to ride the bus home, and all was good. I drove really slow, crying the entire way. We took a picture of them in front of the sign at school, then walked them in. I felt like I was going to just break down at any moment, and was concentrating on being excited for them. A few tears leaked out when we got to Paige and Christian's class. Jeremy and Samantha started taking off their backpacks and were ready to stay. Paige and Christian entered their classroom and just took off. Chatting with the teacher, chatting with the other kids, completely ready to go. I was crushed! While I was happy that they were okay with me not being there, I secretly wished that they would cling just a little. There was no clinging at all!!!! Then we went to Samantha and Jeremy's class and it was more of the same. They just took off. Ready to be "in school". I was very grateful that they all remembered to kiss me and say good-bye, but I felt like I was an after thought. Again, I was really glad that they were going to be okay without me, but all of a sudden I was not sure I was going to be okay without them.

So we said our good-byes and about half way down the hall I started to lose it. I wanted to run back and grab them. The tears started and I made it out to the car and sat there for about 5 minutes just crying. Dan was looking at me like I was crazy. Guys just don't understand!!!!! The entire day was weird for me. I went to the store, alone, and it was just strange. At home it was creepy quiet. I watched the clock all day long. I couldn't wait for them to get home. The bus arrived just after 4 and the kids were so excited to be home, and I cried when I got to hold them in my arms again and I knew that all of us had survived the first day. They are in bed now and they cannot wait to go back to school. Tomorrow cannot come fast enough for them, but for me, I wish it would never come!!!